Archive for July, 2010
A Friend. Will you comment please?
She came into my life in the late dark.
Chilling mist driving her to park
I woke from a stupor believing I’d had a dream
At my door I heard her pitiful moan;
Skirting past she came into my heart, my home.
Her choice, her entry; a shadow danced from wall to wall.
Staring at me unblinking, thin, sickly in the pall
I gave up trying to relate in the moment though
She wore marks of class, but suspicion her mask
Intending me to await her verdict; taking me to task.
Acting as if she’d seen enough,
She’s knew in a breath she’d called my bluff
Satisfied with my domestic skills,
She chose what would be her place
My every move questioned, showing a mysterious face
In my home she stayed for weeks uncounted by me
I kept her fed, touching when she allowed, respecting her ‘free’
An odd, confusing relationship at best.
One morning that cry again waking me from a hallway floor
I found my stray guard Cat left by the pet door
She’d decided to move on, I fell to my knees and cried
I swear I could imagine her voice "You no longer need to hide
Yer OK for just now,
But leave me access if you please
I’ll be close to listen if again you happen to need."
Hiya honey. I just love how your heart is so completely open to both sides of just about any issue. This wasn’t sad for me; melancholy, sure, but resigned too, as if y’know, and that’s just how it is:
Dogs have masters…
Cats have staff!!!
And your writing continues to command my rapt attention! Write on, darlin’…
Slight prior record/ unescapable past; Can I still become a police officer?
I’m interested in becoming a police officer. I’ve looked into the criminal justice program at my local college, but the adviser said she wasn’t positive if I’d pass the criminal background check they do before they allow you to be apart of the program. I’ve had one Minor in Possession back in 2006 which is a misdemeanor when I was 17. I’m now almost 21 (I’ll be 21 on September 12th). I’ve also had 5 traffic tickets (I know, horrible right? I’ve worked on it, cruise control is my friend. lol Only two speeding tickets; one for 5 over and one for 21 over. 21 over was a bad day. It was my father’s birthday who was also an officer and passed away on 8/13/09 I was really upset that day) Unfortunately, I’ve had a rocky past with my local law enforcement as well. Not because of what I’ve done but they automatically judged me because of my mother’s ex-husband who hit and almost killed an officer on purpose (I hated him when my mother married him when I was 4. I knew he was trash then). My mother and I have also had a few scuffles when I was a teenager at home. She had some mental issues but is also an extremely good and believable liar. (I love her and respect her, but it’s true.) I’d never do anything to intentionally hurt or disrespect my mother. But she was quite conniving and even used my siblings (who have mental disabilities) as her "witnesses". I’ve also experimented with hard drugs the year I was 17. I was never caught or convicted of any drug charges though. If there is to be a polygraph test, I’m more than willing to tell the absolute truth about everything in my life, past or present. My interest in becoming an officer is to protect and help the people who need it obviously, and hopefully provide guidance to people who need it as well; particularly the youth. Now that all my issues are out there, what are the chances of me becoming an officer? It’s something I’d really love to do and I believe I’d be a great officer. Please give me your opinions. Thank you. 
-Chelsae M.
You’ll probably be alright if you just keep all that personal baggage thinking to yourself.Just answer what they ask you but don’t volunteer extra possibly questionable stuff.Everybody has skeletons in their closet.Just leave them there unless they come up…even then you don’t tell every detail.
What I think will matter most in your case is gonna be what you can show them you’ve been doing positive recently(or for the last few years after 17)in your life.Also,show your confidence…it’s definitely needed in this line of work.Are you thinking of the Police dept. you’ve had all the issues with?Why not somewhere else?You don’t have any big criminal issues as far as I can tell.
Can someone explain the productivity or reincarnation in Hinduism if you can not remember your past lives?
when you change lives your forget your past ones so you always have to relearn the same lessons. Someone explain the reason for the productivity of good or bad lives because you cannot remember the rewards or punishments made to you in your past lives for what you have done.
The lessons learnt in past lives is reflected in personality…there are people who would never make the mistake of getting into drugs and things like that…Sometimes you ask Why? But that’s just who they are.
This "who they are" was not the same as the people they were in their previous births. They evolved to become what they are now and will evolve in this birth as well.
Is this a stupid thing to put as my religious beliefs on facebook?
i don’t believe in god or any of that crap so i wanted to post this on facebook in my religious beliefs bcuz religion defines what you believe in..and..there aren’t any religions listed that i like..but i’m not sure if it will just make me look stupid or if i went a little to far? i don’t know. also if there is anything that might make it better, i’d love to hear it. as long as it’s not mean..
I believe that the big bang created the world and people. I believe that we should get more than one chance at life. I believe that we shouldn’t have to go this so called "Hell" and be on fire constantly while a thing with horns yells at you for "sinning" O_o I believe that how you treated people in your past life determines how your next life will be. I don’t believe in marriage simply because there is no need. If you love that person, you should not have to spend thousands of dollars or sign contracts to prove it. I believe that gay should be legalized. And I believe….
i couldn’t think of anything else to put at the end of it..cuz..i pretty much said everything i believed in..eh..idk? maybe you can help..?
i’m sorry it’s so long. D:
i can’t just put atheist in..i believe i alot more than that..
uh? how am i being disrespectful..i do not understand that. i’m just "expressing" my beliefs? and everyone i know besides 1 person is atheist.
wisdom guy. christains say its only ok for a man and a woman to get married. maybe u should also ask christains how marriage views got into their religious views. o_o i feel like i made no sense..but i dont really care..cant find any other way to explain it.
lolz. thanks shane. and yes u can use it. i probably won’t post it. theteawitch (i think thats her name) has a point, it kind of is easier to just leave it blank and if someone asks me about my religious beliefs then i can be "disrespectful" and tell ‘em my thoughts. 
that is hilarious "thing with horns yells at u for sinning" oh man. that just makes christains look retarted. u have to post that. or i will. mind if i take it? yeah. the wisdom guy isn’t to smart. i love how u talk back to retards that answered ur question ^_^ i think it’s just perfect. and if all but 1 of ur facebook friends is atheist, y not? it’s not like they can do anything besides say crap behind ur back. but. that doesn’t do anything, right? it’s cool though. the marriage part made a lot of sense, even though u said it didnt. it did, it might just be bcuz i make no sense a lot of the time. so we speak the same langauge. lolz xD if ur the kinda person that disney is..putting all that believe in urself crap on the commericials then u can put "and lastly i belive in myself/you" or something like that. idk? keep up the awesomeness xD -shane p.s. THEREVMAN wtf is wrong with u? ashley asked for advice on her facebook problem. SHE DID NOT ASK TO BE PREACHED BY U.
Of the list which is the best band?
All That Remains
As I Lay Dying
Atreyu
Avenged Sevenfold
Becoming the Archetype
Biohazard
Byzantine
Chimaira
Common Dead
Damageplan
Darkest Hour
Demon Hunter
DevilDriver
Disturbed
Down
God Forbid
Hatebreed
Killswitch Engage
Korn
Lamb of God
Life of Agony
Living Sacrifice
Machine Head
Mastodon
Otep
Poison the Well
Prong
Shadows Fall
Slipknot
Superjoint Ritual
The Agony Scene
The Black Dahlia Murder
The Dillinger Escape Plan
The Red Chord
Throwdown
Trivium
Unearth
War of Ages
why did you make this so hard?!?!
HELP RATING AND EDITING MY ANTI-EFFECT DRAGON DECK (IMPROVED)?
Monsters: (LV 4 and under)
x1 Lord of D.
x2 Dark Blade
x3 Luster Dragon
x1 Dragon Dwelling in the Cave
x1 The Creator incarnate
x1 Kiabaman
x1 Kaiser Sea Horse
Mosters: (Lv5-6):
x1 Horus the Black Flame Drgn LV6
x1 Kiryu
x1 Prime Material Drgn
x1 White-Horned Dragon
x1 Different Dimension Drgn
Monsters: (lv7-8):
x1 Horus the Black Flame Drgn LV6
x3 Blue Eyes White Drgn
x1 The Creator
Special SUmmoning requiring Monsters:
x3 Van’Dalgyon the Dark Dragon Lord
x1 Horus the Black Flame Drgn
x1 Blue Eyes Shining Drgn
x1 BLue Eyes Ultimate Drgn
Traps:
x3 Spell Shield Type-8
x3 Divine Wrath
x1 Seven Tools of the Bandit
x1 A Rival Appears
x1 Dust Tornado
x1 Shadow Spell
x1 Hidden Book of spell
x1 Sakuretsu Armor
x1 Trap Jammer
X1 Shift
Spell:
x1 Rod of Silence Kay’est
x1 Mystical Space thyphoon
x1 Tribute to the doomed
x1 pt of avarice
x1lightnig vortex
x1 heart of clear water
x1 Axe of Despair
x1 Soul Exchange
x1Swords of Revealing Light
x1 Polymerization
Cards I’m in the process of acquiring;
x3 Dark Bribe
X1Mirror Force
x1 Dark Mirror Force
x1 Dragon ‘s Bead
x1 Totem Dragon
x3 Golem Dragn
x2 Dragon Knight
x1 King Dragun (i already have ragnarok, i’ll aadd him if I get King D.)
As you can see, my deck is discard heavy, Do any of you know any cards that return to a player’s hand after being discarded that are not forbidden?
Should I replace by Blue-Eyes archetype monsters with Red Eyes B. Dragon Monsters (suppport cards like R. E B.Chick and R.E.Darkness Dragon)
I see what you are trying to achieve but with that many cards youre gonna get thrown off balance easy
My Mother Consistently Sabbatoged My Life..How Do I Repair The Damage This One Last Time?
I am a good 42 yo mentally stable, intelligent, confident, & independent man. My problem is primarily the last decade my mother has consistenly found ways to sabbatoge my life. First, when I would come home to visit, she would wait till I’m about ready to leave to ask me to do things like install ceiling fans, fix her computer, etc. The drive back home is approx 6 hours, & leaving at 11pm or later is not acceptable when I have to be at work at 8am. Throughout my childhood she has always been very over protective to the point that I have always felt I was fighting for my independence. When I distance myself, she says things like "Maybe I will be dead by the end of the year & you can profit from my death." I have always had good jobs, but everytime things started to go very well, suddenly I crash & burn with for no reason. She is always their & willing to help when I am in trouble financially, as I believe her goal is to keep me dependent so that I will always be tired to her. Due to a very bad relationship break up, I lost all my in heritance due to legal fees, not being able to find employment, overwhelment of maternal family issues, & discovering & recovering from co-dependency. It took me 5+ years to rebuild myself emotionally after all the drama. Because I was "litterally burned out" just as much as I was broke, I distanced myself from everyone. Figured out what I wanted out of life, & started to work towards it. After an unexplained dissmissal form a longterm contract job, I sold most everything, & relocated from one coast to another for a fresh start. I picked a place I had never been, nor did I know anyone, & was cautious about what I let be known about my past. I obtained a great job, but unfortunately became seriously sick & hospitalized soon afterward. Because I had no family & friends here, my supervisors & co-workers asked for my emergencey contact info, as well as I relayed the info to my mother. I did not discuss the nature of my illness with ANYONE at work or family. Work only knew I was seeing my doctor quarterly for lab results. My illness required me to start taking medication that made me drowsy, & other side effects. My work performance did not suffer, actually improved other than a few late arrivals. Because of the fatigue & side effects, I generally was not very social after work hours & wanted to go home & sleep. My co-workers became "Concerned" contacted my mother with the theory that I maybe on drugs, or serverely depressed. Every "work-related" task or ‘prank" the threw my way, I not only caught, but excelled. They presumed I may have been suicidal as I stop speaking to all of them socially, but maintained a professional & politie behavior when interacting. I declined all social invites or non-professional bonding attempts. My mother took this opportunity to not only tell my co-workers of my complete past of my failed 7 year relationship & the personal details, but included her own misconceptions about me as she only see & knows what she wants, & what little I allowed her of my personal life. The sabbotage intesified when my employer got a hold of my personal address book & delivered it to my mother. I began receiving calls from friends & associates that I had not had contact with in years & wanting to discuss subjects that were beyond our relationship boundardies in order to receive info. This ensued for months until I left work under "Medical Leave" as the stress & harrassment from work was too much to handle & starting to severeally affect my medical condition. I endured this for 9+ months, doing everything in my power to dispell these false myths & confiding in my mother who acted innocent. After taking leave, I began to place all the origins of information together. Most of which I discovered came directly from my mother & my past experiences with her misconceptions of me (only place I have ever heard such non-sense). Inspite of catching her in several lies, she still denies her part. Her solution, move back home & be with her. The one thing I have been trying to get away from most of my life. I love my mom, would do anything for her, but I do need & have a right to my own life. Because of this Utlimate Sabbatoge I am now on disablility, making less than 50% of my take home pay, bills & deliquencies mounting daily. It’s been 6 months, & I have been looking for another job, infact wanting to relocate, yet I have had no luck. I am not only capable of working full-time, but want & need too. Now that my employer has a negative view of me, & experience with a mother than has ruined my life again 2300 miles away. What can I do? I am totally embarrased, 44 years old, a mother than cannot control her actions, & friendships of a decades ruined because I no longer trust them as most allowed themselves to be caught in this drama, instead of just contacting me directly & telling me what my mother was doing. I am frus
I had a very similar situation over my life and I understand where your coming from.Your Mother feels unneeded and alone and vulnerable and she will say and do anything she can to get you closer to her.Even when she knows it is wrong, she is desperate to the point that she may truly believe the things she is saying even if it is distorted in her mind.Unfortunately your friends and coworkers got involved in the situation and your left to deal with the mess again.she is your Mother and you need to handle her in a different way,put yourself in her shoes and realize- you need to forgive her and move on with your own life. Tell her only what you want to tell her even if it is not true and keep her at bay while you live your own life.Life is a series of things we need to learn and grow from and you can only do the best you can.Pull yourself out of the pit and keep a positive attitude,you have done it before and you can do it again. I have learned that you can’t live your future by your past, put the past behind you and leave it there.Take small steps and rebuild a wonderful future.
Is Online Dating for You?
Online dating has been around for over a decade now. This is one of the fastest-growing industries on the Internet. Right now there are over 50 million singles looking to find their mates online, and the numbers keep growing by the thousands every day.
Many dating websites have begun to advertise on television, so pretty much everyone (even those without a computer) has the chance to hear about online dating. If you are single, you have probably asked yourself if online dating is for you, and whether or not you should try it.
Jump right in! I believe that online dating is suitable for anyone, unless of course you do not like computers or the Internet.
Online dating is another way to meet people, just like going to a bar, placing newspaper ads, or using a matchmaking service. It is simply a choice you make, and as with any other way of meeting singles, there are advantages and disadvantages. Of course, there are always some people ready to criticize and put down anything new in our society.
People who do not like online dating will criticize the impersonal aspect of it. They say that you do not have real contact with people, that people online are just in front of their computers, typing on their keyboards in their rooms or basements, interacting with other people in a virtual world but in reality, alone. To them, the physical contact of meeting new individuals in the traditional way is missing. Since the physical contact is necessary to find out if there is chemistry or not, and to finally get to know someone truly, they will argue that online dating is not good or makes no sense.
So yes, online dating has its disadvantages, like any other way to meet singles. But to me it is clear that the advantages surpass the disadvantages.
When dating online, you have access to thousand of people at once. You know that those people have posted their ads to find a date or a soul mate. There is no confusion: Everyone you find on a dating site is single and wants to find someone.
Another advantage is that you get a lot of information about the other person before you meet. Most dating websites have designed a list of several questions that subscribers answer when posting their profiles.
By reading these profiles, you can find out if people have kids, if they want more kids, if they smoke or drink, if they are the outgoing type. You can find out their income, the type of work they do, and how they look, hair color and length, height, body type, plus anything else you can imagine writing on a personal profile. These profiles help a lot in weeding out people who do not interest you, and all this before you even meet for the first time.
In real time, it could take you several weeks, months or even years to get all this information from your new partner, while online you can get it all at once, in a matter of minutes.
There are other advantages of online dating, such as being able to find your match in your pajamas in the comfort of your home, seven days a week, 24 hours a day.
So when you really look at it, there are no reasons to think there is anything wrong with online dating. Any single person with a computer can use online dating to find and meet someone, and who knows: He or she maybe the love of your life.
David Roy
http://www.articlesbase.com/dating-articles/is-online-dating-for-you-701707.html
